Inner Dialog on the Outside - II

I'm having a bit of difficulty articulating something. Perhaps I should employ a well-spoken and articulate negro (although I'd be labeled an elitist socialist for the association) to help me with this. What I'm having a difficult articulating is this:

Never have I intended to be unbiased or serve as some sort of neutral journalist eyewitness in this deal. If there is a story to tell, I full well plan to be a part of the story rather than merely reporting what happened. More important to me is to report what my experience was in this story. In fact, if there are things I can do to create the story, all the better.

Perhaps I'm shooting for something that transcends social documentary. Something more deliberate, more authentic than reporting. Something that is comfortable and beautiful being the bullshit it is:

Art. Art in 2010. Ha! The story, I know realize, is about me.

So true it is that I don't want to do what has been done already.