Silver platters and conveyor belts
Adulation is a powerful thing
We will write the rules
We will write the laws
We will be known as
king and queens
rulers on earth as it is in heaven
The topic was why
At least that was the topic on my side of the conversation
and I was listing all the reasons for art
Money and
Sex and
Drugs and
Legend and
Fame and
Then I hesitated when it came to my why
because I have always just done these things
since forever just because it always was
Just the thing that just needed to be done
When I was eight
That makes time around my third grade
and I had two friends named Tim
and I first cussed and I
first touched a girl and
Gave my first performance
The feigning of what I then knew as “amnesia”
All who am I and where am I
At eighteen oh man
So independent and all by my lonesome now
But that is what all the specific and programmed
breeding and training had prepared me for
Figuring just where the cracks and the
chinks and the vulnerabilities existed
Suckers for cons to manipulate dominate exploit
It was like discovering that magic is real
I was a twenty-eight year-old normal
Wannabe normal doing normal things
and thinking normal thoughts
but not really because everything
was either a shameful secret or just another lie
Like being a fraud in an anxiety dream
Or another bad formula comedy movie
A puppet master’s mannequin dancing
Thirty-eight began the reconfirmation
Major building blocks from divergent selves
Stacking together like Tetris blocks
But easily like the computerized demonstrations
Not only do I now know but I now know they know
No now it’s like I can tell when they know now
The eyes give it all away and
The eyes can sell it all back for unfair profits
The beauty of forty-eight
There is a new found appreciation for the work
and one can now see also where and how the next act turns
and how it rewards the hard work with a
Personal satisfaction that feels strikingly like
What you always imagined it would feel like
And most importantly you now can understand
How vulnerable and temporary it all is - now was
Then I hesitated when it came to my why
because I have always just done these things
since forever just because it always was
Just the thing that just needed to be done
Fame and
Legend and
Drugs and
Sex and
Money and
The topic is always why
At least that is the topic on my side of the conversation
and I listed all the reasons for life
We wrote the rules
We wrote the laws
We are known as
king and queens
rulers on earth as it is in heaven
Silver platters and conveyor belts
That was one fine ride
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