like I was saying
hiding in plain sight
or in plane sight
watching
just watching
interactions I have excluded myself from
but it puts me in an awkward place
people talking
exchanging
obviousness
this place is a bee hive
I can do it
I have done it
I know how to do it really well
but I’ve never particularly enjoyed it
(yet it can appear as if I’m in my element)
those who know me best know the performance
they watch the performance
they give notes
they hone it
I’m their puppet