a mid-summer peek
into unmanaged time and thought
it is strenuous enough work
as a relative term
attempting to make your way home
and no one finds their way back
sweet spot and equilibrium
where the formulas optimize
zones of safe harbor
or criminal hide-outs
with so much to ponder and juggle
and avoid and dismiss
i just still want to ride the ponies
art as selfish manipulation
but my shoes are stuck in the mud
i am a phony sham coward